He
placed himself as close as he could to the
information booth, just beyond the ring of
people besieging the clerks...
Lieutenant
Blandford remembered one night in
particular, the worst of the fighting, when
his plane had been caught in the midst of a
pack of Zeros. He had seen the grinning face
of one of the enemy pilots.
In one
of his letters, he had confessed to her that
he often felt fear, and only a few days
before this battle, he had received her
answer: "Of course you fear ... all brave
men do. Didn't King David know fear? That's
why he wrote the 23rd Psalm. Next time you
doubt yourself, I want you to hear my voice
reciting to you: 'Yea, though I walk through
the valley of the shadow of death, I shall
fear no evil, for Thou art with me.'" And he
had remembered; he had heard her imagined
voice, and it had renewed his strength and
skill.
Now he
was going to hear her real voice. Four
minutes to six. His face grew sharp.
Under
the immense, starred roof, people were
walking fast, like threads of color being
woven into a gray web. A girl passed close
to him, and Lieutenant Blandford started.
She was wearing a red flower in her suit
lapel, but it was a crimson sweet pea, not
the little red rose they had agreed upon.
Besides, this girl was too young, about 18,
whereas Hollis Meynell had frankly told him
she was 30. "Well, what of it?" he had
answered. "I'm 32." He was 29.
His
mind went back to that book - the book the
Lord Himself must have put into his hands
out of the hundreds of Army library books
sent to the Florida training camp. Of Human
Bondage, it was; and throughout the book
were notes in a woman's writing.
He had
always hated that writing-in-habit, but
these remarks were different. He had never
believed that a woman could see into a man's
heart so tenderly, so understandingly. Her
name was on the bookplate: Hollis Meynell.
He had got hold of a New York City telephone
book and found her address. He had written,
she had answered. Next day he had been
shipped out, but they had gone on writing.
For 13
months, she had faithfully replied, and more
than replied. When his letters did not
arrive she wrote anyway, and now he believed
he loved her, and she loved him.
But she
had refused all his pleas to send him her
photograph. That seemed rather bad, of
course. But she had explained: "If your
feeling for me has any reality, any honest
basis, what I look like won't matter.
Suppose I'm beautiful. I'd always be haunted
by the feeling that you had been taking a
chance on just that, and that kind of love
would disgust me. Suppose I'm plain (and you
must admit that this is more likely). Then
I'd always fear that you were going on
writing to me only because you were lonely
and had no one else. No, don't ask for my
picture. When you come to New York, you
shall see me and then you shall make your
decision. Remember, both of us are free to
stop or to go on after that - whichever we
choose..."
One
minute to six - he pulled hard on a
cigarette.
Then
Lieutenant Blandford's heart leaped higher
than his plane had ever done.
A young
woman was coming toward him. Her figure was
long and slim; her blond hair lay back in
curls from her delicate ears. Her eyes were
blue as flowers, her lips and chin had a
gentle firmness. In her pale green suit, she
was like springtime come alive.
He
started toward her, entirely forgetting to
notice that she was wearing no rose, and as
he moved, a small, provocative smile curved
her lips.
"Going
my way, soldier?" she murmured.
Uncontrollably,
he made one step closer to her. Then he saw
Hollis Meynell.
She was
standing almost directly behind the girl, a
woman well past 40, her graying hair tucked
under a worn hat. She was more than plump;
her thick-ankled feet were thrust into
low-heeled shoes. But she wore a red rose in
the rumpled lapel of her brown coat.
The
girl in the green suit was walking quickly
away.
Blandford
felt as though he were being split in two,
so keen was his desire to follow the girl,
yet so deep was his longing for the woman
whose spirit had truly companioned and
upheld his own; and there she stood. Her
pale, plump face was gentle and sensible; he
could see that now. Her gray eyes had a
warm, kindly twinkle.
Lieutenant
Blandford did not hesitate. His fingers
gripped the small worn, blue leather copy of
Of Human Bondage, which was to identify him
to her. This would not be love, but it would
be something precious, something perhaps
even rarer than love - a friendship for
which he had been and must ever be grateful.
He
squared his broad shoulders, saluted and
held the book out toward the woman, although
even while he spoke he felt shocked by the
bitterness of his disappointment.
"I'm
Lieutenant John Blandford, and you - you are
miss Meynell. I'm so glad you could meet me.
May...may I take you to dinner?"